It has been a while since I posted anything on here. My apologies. I just feel right now, there is a lot I need to get off my chest. Something that has been lurking around recently is the fact that my pops has lung cancer. It has been pretty tough, but nobody would know that just from talking to me to seeing me in public. Not a lot of people outside of family know he has it, and it will probably stay that way even when he is better. I’m not the type of person that expresses my “feelings”. I don’t care for people being sympathetic towards me because I don’t want people feeling “sorry”. Over the course of these past few months, I just couldn’t help but be inspired by my pops “I’m going to beat the shit out of it” attitude. Seeing my dad go through this, made me think of one quote. “There are two important days in your life. The day you were born and the day you find out why.” I still have yet to determine the why, but if I can do what my dad has done and impact so many people’s lives in a good way as much as he has, then I will die a happy man. I’ve learned that life has so many curveballs and throws so much shit at you, but I still believe that everything happens for a reason. This shit is happening to him and us for a reason, and even though it may not be apparent now, something positive will come out of this. Hell, it definitely brought our family a hell of a lot closer.
The main thing about life is to always maintain a positive outlook on everything. Sometimes shit will be rough and hard, but that is where we define ourselves as human beings. We can choose to use these obstacles as building blocks or stumbling stones. Whichever route we choose will ultimately determine the course of our future.
More to come…
I over heard this argument one day about someone arguing about life and death. He proposed the question, “why are we alive.” I made sure my blunt voice was heard when i said “self-actualization.” He looked at me with a facial expression that I will never forget. He asked me why I said that (which I’m glad he did).
I explained to him my thoughts on it which, to make a long story short, is to discover who we are.
I don’t know about you, but I go on living each day to discover who I really am. It is easy to say the positives about ourselves, but a lot harder to come to terms with the negatives. When you are able to accomplish that, then you truly are a self actualization human being. This process though, takes a lifetime.
Everybody is created differently, and that is what make us so unique. My idea of being alive is simply living. Living in the notion of experiencing life for what it is. Stepping outside of your comfort zone, implementing new ideas, being better than you were the day before, experiencing new facets of life, but most importantly, bringing the best out of you each and everyday that you can.
We are here to live up to our potential. How are we going to know what our potential is unless we push ourselves in every aspect of life. School, work, the gym, etc. You will never know what you are made of unless you try. Fail. Make mistakes. That is perfectly ok. This is what makes you. Learning from failure will better improve you. It will make you stronger. It will make you wiser. It will make u a better person.
As Bruce Lee would say, ” don’t pray for an easy life. Pray for the strength to endure a difficult one.”
I hope all this makes sense as I am a little bit drunk while writing this but my thoughts had to come out. I promise to write more about this when I am sober.