Written on 11/19/20
Holy shit! I’m feeling so much better today. I think hearing from Andrea that she would rather be with a girl….in a different state, made me feel better. A lot better. Was able t talk about it, laugh at it, and have lunch with the guys. Shit is great. Way better day…Man, didn’t have much shit to write this afternoon…
So, just got back from drinking….if I’m sounding a bit off, it’s cause of the Vodka, Yuengling, and Rumpelmints. Yummmm. But today, I’e felt like I’ve been bashing on Andrea all day to everyone. Calling her a carpet muncher and shit. Honestly, I still miss her. Still think about her. Even though I felt like she did me wrong. But that is besides the point…Had a great fucking day and night.
You get stronger through each unexpected situation you get pu through. Everyone faces adversity at some point in their life. You can choose to use it as building blocks or stumbling stones. I’ve realized over the past couple of days, they have been stumbling stones for me. But why should they? She doesn’t give a fuck. Why should I? After today, I felt like they have helped me evolve. Grow. Conquer. Yes, I’ve been drinking a lot moer, but still. I think I’ve gotten stronger from this. Everything happens for a reason and I believe this shit did happen for a reason. For once, I didn’t do shit to fuck this shit up. It’s a sign…maybe. I don’t know. Fuck it. I’m drunk and still writing this shit. I need some more Vodka and sleep.